It’s good to be very happy for the past few days and yes I did feel like I’m walking in cloud nine again. However, I’ve accidentally chanced upon a situation where it brought me back to reality, in a harsh and disappointing fashion. And there I thought I’ve been given the opportunity to feel love again but I was wrong after all.
One moment you think you are walking in heaven, the next day you are crawling in hell. I was silly because after many years of healing, I’ve actually allowed myself to succumb into the same mess that pulled me down for many years again. It’s ironic that one line is enough to destroy the shield you have been trying to build in order to protect yourself.To put it into a better sentence, it’s like nuking my emotions with a barrage of words.
Right now, I’m back at square one. It’s even more ironic when you know you are not supposed to put high hopes on something but you still proceed by putting high hopes anyway. The only aftermath if things don’t go your way (especially after putting high hopes on it), you will end up feeling disappointed.
This is the reason I said I’m silly because I knew it very well that the higher I’m on the top, the harder I’ll fall. It’s like jumping off from the Empire State building and be prepare to see your own body smashing on the floor like pan cakes. Don’t worry; I’m not going to jump off from the revolving Taming Sari Tower, I am merely expressing a situation.
Normally I’m able to defuse such situation pretty easily but I don’t quite understand why I’m feeling extremely disappointed this time. I’ve always wanted to prove my own views wrong on a certain subject; unfortunately I was dead right after all.
The Bangles - Eternal Flame Close your eyes, give me your hand, darlin'
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand? (apparently not)
Do you feel the same?
Am I only dreaming? (I sure am)
Is this burning an eternal flame?
I believe it's meant to be, darlin'
I watch you when you are sleeping
You belong with me
Do you feel the same? (apparent not, again)
Am I only dreaming?
Or is this burning an eternal flame?
Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely
And then come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling, ohhh..
Ps:- Most of the lines are repetitive so I cut them into half. The sentences in brackets are my own add-on words.
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